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Our Lost Warsaw Ghetto Diary

My relative wrote one of the Shoah’s most revealing documents. Why doesn’t anyone know of it?

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Reuben Ben-Shem’s diary (Courtesy Miriam Offer, Holocaust Studies Program, Western Galilee College, Akko, Israel)

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“Jews began to write,” wrote Emmanuel Ringelblum, the most famous Warsaw Ghetto chronicler, recalling efforts to document the destruction. Ringelblum founded the Oneg Shabbat group, the collection of “journalists, writers, teachers, public figures, youth, even children,” who decided they would record their experiences. The group buried an archive of selected materials, to bear witness. “A great deal was written,” Ringelblum recounted, before his own murder, “but most of it was lost during the deportations and extermination of Warsaw’s Jews. Only the material hidden in the ghetto archive remained.”

That’s what Ringelblum believed.

But missing from the famous ghetto archive is the diary of a man named Reuven Ben-Shem. About 800 pages long, penned in minuscule handwriting that is almost impossible to read with the naked eye, the diary is a remarkable account, clear-eyed and poignant, spanning roughly the time from the establishment of the ghetto to the arrival of Soviet troops in Warsaw. It contains references to everything its author had ever studied—from Mishnah and Torah to secular literature and the work of Sigmund Freud, with whom Ben-Shem learned in Vienna in the interwar period—as well as a close observation of the ways in which Jews were forced to become animals, not metaphorically, but actually. And it is written in modern Hebrew. “It is a fabulous document,” said Amos Goldberg, senior lecturer in Holocaust Studies at the Department of Jewish History at the Hebrew University in Jerusalem, who recently wrote a book on Holocaust diaries. “It has incredible descriptive force.”

February 1942. The street is teeming with sights so maddening, so depraved that it is hard to find any equivalent in the treasury of humanity’s degradation. There is no doubt that the denizens of the jungle and animals will never behave this way. The dead are naked. When someone had just starved, they cover him in wrapping paper and lie him down on the sidewalk, and at night his friends, or just beggars, walk out, and undress him completely, and leave him all naked with no shoes, no dress or even underwear. And in the morning, as you go out in the street and the wind blows off the wrapping papers covering the dead, you see the organs of men, women and children all scrawny, the quivering organs of death in the street. You see the naked bodies, frozen stuck to the sidewalk. The body becomes one with the stone, congealed. One dead chunk screaming with poverty and disgust.

Ben-Shem kept his diary in a leather satchel that he carried with him from the ghetto to the Aryan side of Warsaw, to Lublin, through Romania and onto the illegal ship that ferried him to Palestine in 1946. It remained in the family home until about four years ago when his Israeli-born son Kami showed all 800 pages, stored exactly as it had been in Warsaw, to a researcher named Laurence Weinbaum, who had stumbled upon the name Reuven Ben-Shem dotted throughout Chaim Lazar’s Muranowska 7, a biography of the Revisionist Zionist underground in the Warsaw Ghetto. Intrigued, Weinbaum tracked down the Ben-Shem family and was eventually invited to see what the family had at home. “You can imagine it felt like the moment when the Bedouin presented the Dead Sea scrolls,” he told me, during a recent interview in his Jerusalem office.

What Weinbaum found was, in his opinion, one of the most important works of first-person narrative to have survived the Shoah. The diary, he says, “is extraordinary for several reasons: one it is contemporaneous. It is also in Hebrew. Most of the diarists wrote in Yiddish or Polish. And Feldschuh (Ben-Shem’s original name) had extraordinary intellectual horizons.” He was also, points out Havi Dreyfus, a senior lecturer in the department of Jewish History at the University of Tel Aviv, a broad observer, from the deportations, to religious life, to the extremes of ghetto poverty—to intense, painful, descriptions of his desperate desire to allow his young daughter Josima, a piano prodigy, to live. He was a brilliant Hebraist and fluent in—at least—three other languages. Agrees David Silberklang, senior historian at Yad Vashem, “What Reuven Feldschuh did was of great significance. It will be a huge book if the entire diary is published.” Silberklang believes that the diary is “potentially similar to” the impact Victor Klemperer’s diaries had in the 1990s, “because of the quality of the writer and the richness of experience and expanse of years.”

I wouldn’t know of Reuven Ben-Shem’s diary, either, except that he was my grandfather’s first cousin.

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Late on a recent Friday night in the Tel Aviv suburb of Ramat Gan, I attended a Shabbat dinner. At some point, the guests moved from table to couch, and an array of liquors was lined up on the coffee table. Our host, Kami Ben-Shem, receded into a back room and returned with a selection of crumbling, yellow paper. The first page—kept in a plastic sleeve, the sort that might be used by children in a binder for school—was an announcement for a concert.

concert poster for Josima
Poster for Josima’s concert (Sarah Wildman)

“15 March 1941” it is dated, at the top, “Josima Feldschuh” it says, above the image of a rosy-cheeked girl with a bow in her hair, sitting at a piano, and then, below her photo, it is written in Polish, “11 year old piano virtuoso.”  The program promises selections from Mozart’s Marriage of Figaro and Schubert’s Unfinished Symphony, a concert held at Rymarska 12, the heart of the Warsaw Ghetto. Two years later, the girl, Kami’s half-sister, was smuggled to the Aryan side just before the uprising. Her father had feared her death for all his months in the ghetto.

January 1942. There’s talk recently of the vandals murdering the children and the blood of all the fathers hardens in their veins as they listen to such whispers… I returned home and I am all shaken. My child is sleeping, I am looking at her. My eye deceives me and I don’t see her. She disappears, the bed grows empty. I was frightened. I bent over and held her so forcefully that she woke up, quizzical and afraid. She calmed down as she saw me, and her face radiated with a lovely smile. She sent me a kiss by air, turned over to her side, and fell asleep. Inside of me fritters a demon of fear.

Josima died of tuberculosis some weeks after she went into hiding; soon after, her mother, Pnina, a musicologist, took her own life. Only Reuven survived. After the war, Reuven never spoke of Josima, but her framed photo hung like a ghostly mezuzah in the doorway to his home, so each member of Ben-Shem’s new postwar family would see her as they came in and as they went out.

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herbcaen says:

First, I would make sure that you have multiple copies of this precious document. Second, I might contact Edwin Black, author of IBM and the Holocaust, and The Farhud, both Holocaust related books. His work is not left wing and thus might be a good starting point. I dont have his contact info

What a remarkable, well researched and supperbly written article! Well done Sara!

Binyamin says:

Not just the ghetto Betar-niks were suppressed by post-war Zionism. So were Marek Edelman and the anti-Zionists. Even Anielewicz is problematic because he supported a bi-national state.

It would be fascinating to have this diarists account of the rise of the Jewish Combat Organization and the Jewish Military League.

are these manuscripts going into print

Umish Katani says:

The world must know, make copies , preserve the original and get the copy toprint

You need to bring this to the attention of
Rabbi Marvin Hier — Dean and Founder | Simon Wiesenthal Center
http://www.wiesenthal.com/site/pp.asp?c=lsKWLbPJLnF&b=444131…RABBI MARVIN HIER Founder and Dean Simon Wiesenthal Center Museum of…

It is true that during the 50s, the Labor side of Zionism wrote the history, but everyone knew that the Revisionists participated. I do not recall to what degree of coordination they acted with the rest of the Jewish community during the Warsaw uprising. If they feel they did not get their “due” for what they did during this period, it was because they had spent the pre-state years outside of the World Zionist movement and the Jewish Agency, which acted as a “government” for the Yishuv. It was this failure to accept the “discipline” as a part of the Zionist movement that ended up with their perception that they were not duly credited for their part in the Warsaw revolt against the Nazis. However, after spending the first years of the State of Israel outside of government, they have been “playing makeup” ever since.

In a sense, we now are witnessing an Israel fully in the government control of what were formerly called the Revisionists and their allies in government.

Rosalie H. Kaye says:

First I want to thank Sara for an incredible article. Second I wish the diary could be translated into English and published very soon. The diary is well written and so informative- the images of the dead is almost seared into my mind. No matter how many accounts of what happend in the Warsaw ghetto, there seems to be so much we don’t know. Yad Vashem should get this diary and make sure it is published and preserved!

As usual with Sara Wildman, a well-written, thoughtful article. I wish you much success in having this diary edited, annotated and published. From what you show here, it certainly deserves an airing. One point, though: “Amos Goldberg, the Hebrew University historian of diaries, points out that Victor Klemperer’s diary only came to light during the debate among ordinary Germans sparked by Daniel Goldhagen’s 1997 book Hitler’s Willing Executioners. ” Amos Goldberg is incorrect: the Klemperer diaries were published by Aufbau in 1995 and they were an immediate sensation–with bookstores throughout Germany offering all-night readings of the diaries, documentaries, and a slew of press. Goldhagen’s book had absolutely nothing to do with it, since it came later.

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Our Lost Warsaw Ghetto Diary

My relative wrote one of the Shoah’s most revealing documents. Why doesn’t anyone know of it?